Sleepless night
My thoughts keep coming
so much to process
And more to know;
a broken marriage
shock of new love
a closet transvestite
thoughts keep running through my mind
past
present
and future ones too
Whats new with you?
whats more to say?
Give me more to run through my brain
I'm blocked, clogged, and drained
Can't cry no more
Or feel much pain
Emotions to some I've never known
My parents divorce
my moms new love
my FWB is my best friend a Trani.
I don't know what to think
So much to do
Lost and confused
Not much left to do
Broken-hearted in so many ways.
So much time to think things through
So
You Lied
I remember how you said, "I miss you."
You lied,
I now can hear it in your voice
The way you said it,
the way it sounded
You Lied.
You said you were different,
You said you loved me
You said you never want to lose me
You lied,
I love you,
I told you the truth
I've never spoken one lie
but only kept one truth.
I told you that too.
You said you were going to see me,
You said you were going to call,
You Lied,
You said so much to me,
To make me happy?
To play with me?
Is this some kind of sick game of yours?
You Lied.
I wanted to hold you,
I needed your shoulder,
I wanted to feel your love,
I needed to feel yo
I feel
Cold
Heartless
Worried
Lost
Im broken
I've fallen apart
I'm sorry
I know its not enough
Theres nothing I could do
Theres nothing I could say
To take that hurt away
I dont know what to feel
I dont know how to say
I love
Why yes I do
But right now
I dont know why
I didnt care
I'm scared
I've fallen apart
My hearts the one thing
I dont want to throw and break apart
Its broken so much
Endured so much pain
I dont know how to take the pain away
Pain of love lost
Bringing the coldest Winter upon my heart
Cold as ice
Broken
Lost
Black ice
Skidding across my pain of loss
Wanting to warm up
When will Spring come
Melting the ice and snow
Warming
Becoming Summer
Bring back the happy birds
Of the love I once had
The Railroad of my Heart by ak-native-13, literature
Literature
The Railroad of my Heart
Your an on going train of thought
Chugging along the railroad of my heart
Moving fast as our love will never stop
Pulling the lever to the wrong tracks
Crashing into the on coming train
Colliding into each other
I made the mistake
Knowing nothing I do
Will fix what happened
Deception turning,
Twisting, into the nature of perfection.
Recollecting the thoughts of what was and now is.
Perceiving views of what is to come.
Believing in dreams and hopes,
Knowing all will fall into place.
Nature of perfection,
Will become
What was,
What is;
Moreover,
What is to come.
Thoughts of worry run through my mind
Curious on the truth if you'll be there
Stressed thoughts wonder as I ponder over you
Thouhts of your choice do you truly care
Will you stay with me through the pain or will you be walking away
Wondering over the conversatio we jus had, will you be calling back?
Knowing things are best that I wait to hear from you.
Im scared to know what you have to say, I'm scared to know the truth
When we find the truthwill you stay talk or be walking away?
You Lied
I remember how you said, "I miss you."
You lied,
I now can hear it in your voice
The way you said it,
the way it sounded
You Lied.
You said you were different,
You said you loved me
You said you never want to lose me
You lied,
I love you,
I told you the truth
I've never spoken one lie
but only kept one truth.
I told you that too.
You said you were going to see me,
You said you were going to call,
You Lied,
You said so much to me,
To make me happy?
To play with me?
Is this some kind of sick game of yours?
You Lied.
I wanted to hold you,
I needed your shoulder,
I wanted to feel your love,
I needed to feel yo
Deception turning,
Twisting, into the nature of perfection.
Recollecting the thoughts of what was and now is.
Perceiving views of what is to come.
Believing in dreams and hopes,
Knowing all will fall into place.
Nature of perfection,
Will become
What was,
What is;
Moreover,
What is to come.
Frustration Contemplation Confusion and Delusion
Depressive, Emulsive, Intrusive, and Elusive
Feelings, Dealings, Controlling
I'm Lost Confused Refused Misused and Reused (ew)
Deceitful, enciteful delightful,
I love the sounds of word play
Repeated, Conceited, Defeated,
Lusted, Trusted, Destructed
Gosh so many words
Its as if I were a dictionary or a thesaurus
Diminutive, definitive, infinite
Let me know if i Mention something that doesnt exist or repeated
Mentioned, questioned, functioned,
"wooh wipes sweat off forehead"
Menstruating, Entertaining, Explaining Detaining,
Last word, its a nice one i promise, just tell me if you
Days go on
Lives pass by
Your loves seems strong
Its too soon, i say
But you seem confident
I care much, I hope you know
I don't want to break this,
Just born relationship
Your awesome, your funny
Your true and I know
I hope this last
Like a great theatrical show
Everything has an end
I am looking for a happy ending
I hope never ends
I'm falling for you
I'm falling to fast
Come catch me I say
Come catch me I ask
This care I hold
Dear to my heart
Wishing you were here
Knowing who you are
You seem to perfect
To true to my dream
YOur what I've always waned
Your what i want to need
This reality seems so fake
Yet I know is true
Your perfect to me
I know I am too
Your not love at first siht
Its too good to be true
But perfect is too much to explain about you
Truthfully told your just the right size
Not perfect or average just right in between
Too good to be true
To good to not know
But perfects too perfect
Because your just right for me
Sleepless night
My thoughts keep coming
so much to process
And more to know;
a broken marriage
shock of new love
a closet transvestite
thoughts keep running through my mind
past
present
and future ones too
Whats new with you?
whats more to say?
Give me more to run through my brain
I'm blocked, clogged, and drained
Can't cry no more
Or feel much pain
Emotions to some I've never known
My parents divorce
my moms new love
my FWB is my best friend a Trani.
I don't know what to think
So much to do
Lost and confused
Not much left to do
Broken-hearted in so many ways.
So much time to think things through
So
I submitted my first poem in a really long time...actually its the first one i've done in a really long time and actually was able to write something down.
I'm glad i finished it...
I just want something happy to write about for once.
I've been stuck having a hard time writing lately. Its ridiculous, I'm in need of a muse, inspiration, feeling, I can't seem to find it at the moment. Its as if I've lost my marbles and can't find them anywhere. I may have lost them in Neverland, were everyone else loses theres. Arg, sometime I'll find myself again. Well I've gone searching if I don't come back in a week. Come find me. :wave: